Friday, June 18, 2010

A beautiful experience

It was a saturday afternoon, the 3 of us hit the room for a quick catnap. After about an hour and a half I woke up, still in between dreams and reality I notice Noreen has her face on my chest, she was hugging me with both her tiny hands and mumbling something, I scan the room and Lita was no where in sight, I realized she had left the room earlier leaving me and Noreen to continue our sleep.

I look at her and I knew she had woken up not much earlier than me as I can still see the way she stared at me with emptiness in her eyes. She just continue to rub her face on my chest, she look like a kitten wanting affection, she is so manja this way. The feeling I got immediately was how jealous I felt, Noreen had been doing this for the pass 11 months when Lita breastfeed her, but looking at she and Lita and actually feeling the sensation, the hugging and the face rubbing on my chest was an entirely different experience.

It felt so beautiful.

I was having a full bladder and no way I'm going to the toilet, I wanted the experience to last as long as I can, I stroke her head gently and her eyes are half close starring at me. I look at Noreen and cant figured out how a tiny tots like her can move my feelings so much.

Lita creeped in the room to check on Noreen and saw the both of us and she smiled, Noreen broke away from her kitten mode and sprang to life when she saw mama. I told Lita now I finally understand why you cant weaned her off, you just cant get enough of this feelings. Its like having a taste of how heaven should feel like. Its utterly beautiful, a miracle and the feeling that God exist in full display of sensational dispersion of colors.

Such is the wonderful rewards that we redeem.

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